Monday, March 14, 2011

No Problem!

Yesterday, a dear friend succumbed to Leukemia and went to sleep in Jesus. All who knew her are heartbroken at the loss.

Today I have spent much time thinking about Judy, smiling over some of her sayings, remembering the fun times we spent together and praying for her husband and adult children. I have also been thinking about what her husband said yesterday afternoon when we met with him for prayer and support. When they recognized that they had very little time left together, he wanted to know if she had any fears or worries or if she was resting in the assurance of God's love and salvation. He needed to know. He asked her if she was ready. Her answer to him was "No problem". She had wrestled and worked it out with the Lord. She had her time of trouble, and she came through with peace. There were no problems between her and the Lord. I want to reach that point. I want to be able to say, "No problem". So today, as I pray for the family, I pray for myself. I want to rest in God's love and salvation no matter what He allows to come my way. How about you? Can you say, "No problem"?

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Get It Together!

What's my routine? What am I supposed to be doing?

I'm trying to get into a regular purposeful routine, but am having a bit of difficulty. Why? My husband is now back to work, and boy is he busy! For almost 2 years, he was with me during the day. While for some people, that would drive them crazy, I enjoyed the time we spent together. So not only is he back to work and busy, we are in a different town 7 hours from our family, community and church family. Don't get me wrong, I AM praising the Lord for the doors He has opened. We reside in a beautiful marsh/ocean view home, in a small coastal community, business at my husband's clinic is picking up and we have a new church family that is very friendly and welcoming. However, there are some challenges here. I'm without a garden to work in because this isn't our home (I'm pretty sure the wild hogs, raccoons and squirrels would dig up anything I planted anyway). When I go to the gym around the corner from our house, I most often work out by myself. I can easily spend the whole day without seeing a single soul until my husband returns home. I realize this isn't being community and evangelism minded, so I'm trying to find my niche. I enjoy my days, I just want them to be meaningful. At times I've found myself puttering around the house not using my time wisely, and then being remorseful upon reflection.

If you thought this post was going to have the answers already figured out... sorry! I'm working through this even as I post.

When I stand before my Father, I want Him to see that I have done my best to further His kingdom, in my tiny corner of the world and not spent the time indulging self. There are enough people out there doing that now; I don't want to join them.

"Father, help me to see today as a blessing from you. Once it's gone, it's gone. I don't have to rock the world, I just want my days to have meaning. I want to rightly represent You and to be satisfied in the end, knowing I've done my best."